war and uni

When I was just seven a war started in my country and I’ve carried that memory with me forever. My dad was gone I didn’t understand why. Every night I prayed for him to come back just to be alive. My little sister who is 12 years younger couldn’t sleep all night because of the rockets and today I came home after work and I was just broken because I don’t understand why we deserve this. My dad passed away before the war began again in 2022. Now I’m abroad 19 years old with no stable income my mom my brother and my sister are in Ukraine and I can’t finish college. I can’t go to college because I have to work hard make money and just survive abroad but I really want to go to college so bad I don’t know what I’m going to do I can only come back to my country because I can’t afford to study anywhere else and I don’t know how the situation is going to be how I’m going to make money or get through these four years but I really want to join college. I’m not dummie ,just I can’t afford to spend 4 years going to school while feeling so unsafe about tomorrow. (Actually i got accepted into some goos unis in London and choose most affordable one but now im in my first year and I understand that I can’t pay it all ny myself so ill drop out.