I'm scared to leave my apartment
I have a panic disorder and since I have started college it has gotten steadily worse. I'm a junior and at this point I amafraid to go to class on Tuesday and Thursday. I don't know why I had one negative feeling in that class and I now I get scared every time I think about going.I just want to end it all at this point. I see people who are happy and go thereand I am scared just thinking about leaving my front door. I started medicine at the beginning of the semester that just made me want to sleep. I would sleep all day and lost all emotion or feeling for anything. I ended up alienating myself from my friends because I no longer felt emotional toward anybody. I ended it cold turkey so I could focus and wake up but now my symptoms are worse than ever. I just am afraid of people now. I get scared at the thought of being surrounded by them. A few months ago I loved people and hated being alone. I had to withdraw from 2 of my classes and now taking only 10 hours. Yet I am still too scared to even check my email because I know it will just be bad news and I don't think I can handle that. I used to bypass that by going directly to my professors rather than emailing them but now I'm too afraid to leave. I had friends who would help but now they eye me suspiciously like I'm crazy. Now I have become a recluse please what do I do?!
I have panic disorder and I experienced something similar for a bit also my junior year. It's better to email your professors than nothing at all so I think it's great you are doing what you can and professors try to work with you on that:). Most do anyways. I think it's good to try to build a support system. See if ur campus has a center for students with disabilities and if ur campus provide free counseling. If its hard to get out see if ur first session can be done over the phone or if they offer online counseling. Prolly think about seeing a doc or psychiatrist bc meds r tricky and should be checked out. If something makes you that tired make sure you let your fox know bcthere r many diff things that could cause it.
try not to worry about what others r thinking. Put uriPod on if you need to go somewhere and can't stop the anxious thought. Guided imagery really helps... And pushing yourself to talk to someone while ur in panic mode can actually keep you calm. Just meeting a friend for 5 to 10 min on campus or a friendly hello to the local barista guy can make you feel at ease:). You will get back to yourself again. It may take a bit of time and extra effort but you can do it! 7cups is here to support you:)
I would highly encourage you to speak to your doctor about how you feel. While I know you are terribly afraid of people, your doctor at least will be here to help you and can be someone to confide in. I would trust him or her to put you on a better medicine and get everything adjusted, Best of luck to you!
