Panic attacks

Hi dears I want to discuss something here bcoz I hv Noone to share my issues I lost my whole family I think em bipolar patient I live wd hubby wen I dislike his any jestures anything I just say dis n tht but he start shouting I start crying for hours n hours and my mood off depression attack anxiety he comes to agree me and I should b but I can't and torture myself by weeping for long hours dn he dame care I feel alone depress plz help me out if any psychiatrist here bcoz I need medication not advise bcoz already I tried to b calm n quite but couldn't find help it.....plz plz help me out of dis I only torture myself and he always blamed me I m wrong making home environment bad .....as I hv no kids he has four kids wd wife in pak v r in ksa.....