Uncontrollable

Try to talk calmly with your boyfriend. If you have allowed yourself to be rude, then it is very responsible and adequate to ask for forgiveness. I also advise you to create a rule, listen to your body and tell your boyfriend out loud that you need to be alone. No need to wait for an explosive point and create unnecessary quarrels. You can avoid them if you create a space for yourself through dialogue. Try to act like this. If you have a panic attack, you should always understand why it happens, what you lack and create it in your life yourself. Do not think that someone will be able to guess what you need. When you feel sad, imagine that you come to yourself and think about what you would say to yourself as words of support. Do this every time and practice this exercise. Don't blame yourself once again, it's better to think about how you can make the situation better. Sometimes we need to grieve and cry, and this is ok, a smile is behind the tears, as the sun shines behind the clouds. However, it is also necessary to change the attitude and approach to the situation so that this situation begins to change. The way you react is a common story in people's lives, I've had a similar situation, but I'm coping with it and I believe that you can handle it. Hugging you