Anxiety Check-In: July 16 2019

Lately my anxiety has spiked once again. I get these periods of peace and silence were all is good but each time these occur, my anxiety comes afterwards worse than ever. I have had this numb knot in my stomach for days now and honestly my personal life isnt helping

My step mother has been yelling nonstop over small things and has been telling me I'm to be the one who cleans after everyone because I'm a girl and it's heavily frustrating. It seem when things arent done she turns to me as her verbal punching bag. Maybe I'm over exaggerating idk.

My biological mother has been being told that I'm becoming disrespectful and am not doing as I'm told when that is completely untrue and I'm afraid she is disappointed in me because of the things my stepmother has told her.

On top of this I've gotten involved with a guy and my anxiety wont leave me alone about it. It seems I cant help but feel very insecure and I think of how he might react to finding out about my depression and anxiety and just overall stress that I carry on the daily. Hes such a happy-go-lucky person so wth is he even talking to me for? I'm afraid of how people will react when school starts. I hate when people stare which I know they will... I dont understand why I feel this way when I should be happy someone is interested in me

I'm not doing well and I dont see this ending any time soon...