Anxiety Under a Mask of Calm
How do I feel right now? A bit like a yo-yo. On the outside, I probably look like I'm doing fine, maybe even good. Multiple people have commented on how calm I always am, what a calming presence I have. That's better than making people nervous, I suppose. Inside, though I worry about a lot of things.
Are those people talking about me? Did I do something wrong? Did I look at them weird (cause they only can see my eyes since I'm wearing a mask)? How did they interpret that? Parking anxiety always. Do I have any friends? Are they not replying to me because they're busy or because they have severe COVID or because they don't like me or because they forgot about me or because they're struggling mentally, too? If I don't check X, then Z will happen (OCD). Etc. The list goes on.
@determinedJackfruit4571
Hello, I am happy that you found in 7 cups a place to be yourself and express yourself without the fear to make your closed circle feel nervous. Sadly the world is not ready yet to accept all the variety of their people's minds and we have to role play our asigned roles in order to fit.
I hope you will find some people with whom you can be a bit yourself and they can be a bit theirselves with you.
Good luck in your way. Hugs =)
