Anxiety and Manic Episodes

I’ve never been diagnosed manic. I did once discuss hypomania with my psychiatrist. I sometimes get a euphoric, dissociative experience after a migraine. Lately, I’ve been feeling anxious. I’m starting to interact with the world more, taking on some freelance projects and dealing with accountants and taxes. I find I’m really annoyed a lot some days. I hate sitting on hold, can’t find a pen, computer does not work, traffic. Other days I’m getting stuff done, but it takes effort and I get that dissociation — it’s like I’m not acting, I’m watching myself act. It’s like I’m not in my head but two feet back and to the right. I’ve always had dissociation at times going back to childhood. I have a high ACE score. I used to drink. (Sober two years.) I used to get clogged ears and have sort of a labyrinthine feeling like everything was muffled. That’s what the dissociation feels like. My head if muffled, I see myself in action, but I’m not located where I think I should be. It’s disorienting, but my house is getting clean.