Anxiety and feeling weird

I don't know how to describe how I fee, but it has been bothering me a lot. I feel empty and numb, I laugh but I don;t feel happy, I can cry but I don't feel sad. I am so confused and lost. I feel amxious a lot, and when I don;t feel anxious I feel emotionally dead. Someone could yell at me and tell me I am horrible amd I wouldn't feel a thing, or you could hand me a million dollars and I wouldn't feel anything either. I often feel like I am in autopilo mode, like I am a passenger on this journey called life amd don't really have any control over what I say or do. It sort of feels like I am living, but not alive. I know I am strugguling with anxiety, and I am not sure if how I feel is a symtop of anxiety, or something else. I don't kow if what I said makes sense to anybody. I just want to know that I am not alone. Does anybod else feel like this?