Anxiety and moving

I'm terrified right now. I may have found a place. But moving like this is terrifying. On top of it, it seems like everyone has an attitude with me because they see me not listening to them when someone says it will be ok. But they don't understand my life I love every year, even if it's not my fault. I try to explain my mental health to people and they just keep telling me to stop or other stuff. I feel like I can't even go through these emotions and be upset. I just feel controlled on everything again. I'm really scared. I feel like a huge waste of space to people. I can't stop crying, I'm gaining weight, and I'm all over the place. 😭😭