Boss, secrets and anxiety. Help!!!

My boss called my house just before I tried to hurt myself, he knew I was in trouble but doesn't know exactly what kind of trouble and now I am worried that he will hold it against me. He has already not renewed my contact and I didn't get the other job where he was a.reference. he has constantly reassured me he won't say a word and it does not affect anything at work. But I'm not sure. And worried there is an undercurrent of rumours that is being spread, affecting my employment