Bottled.

I've had, or at least been diagnosed with, anxiety since early high school. I am now 3 years out of school and not much has changed besides being finally prescribed medicine. The pills I was prescribed though, only weaken the symptoms, but I still get hit with them every day. I work retail, which is not at all ideal, but when you are out of school and your parents don't have the funds to help, I had to get a job fast. Many people tell me I may also have ADHD, but my parents and doctor refuse to even think about it as a possibility. My mind is all over the place and I struggle with many things. Energy/motivation is one of the biggest alongside personal relationships. I used to be very active in my job, but recently my coworkers have been noticing my lack of productivity, which I just write off as being burnt out due to working 6 out of the 7 days in a week. I wouldn't say my condition is getting worse, more like it is finally catching up to my years of just putting my head down and barreling through it. I've recently looked into therapy, but with prices ranging from $250+ a month to nearly $400, I just cannot afford it due to getting severely underpaid in my job. I have confided in some friends and online people before, but with the busy schedule of being an adult and having their own life, replies start to dwindle if I don't have an emergency. I rarely talk to anyone besides that which adds another layer of pain into my life. I'm extremely lonely and because of that, suffer with confidence and self-image issues. After seeing this was free, I decided to use it as a venting system to at least get some things off my chest, even if it isn't professional support. Thanks for reading.