Daily Depression & Anxiety

Hi, my name is Chloe. I am 20 years old and I have been feeling really anxious and depressed for the past couple months, crying every single day because I basically feel like a failure in every aspect of my life. I just wanted to vent out some of the problems I’m facing.

1) I have no friends anymore and haven’t really since I left college, so I’m often very isolated and moving to a new area & the pandemic definitely didn’t help with making new friends. I’ve researched meet up groups in my area but everyone is way older than me and nobody my age attends them, so I just feel stuck.

2) I don’t really have any work experience other than a couple weeks on a previous apprenticeship, but they didn’t really teach me anything and basically knocked all my confidence I had (which wasn’t a lot). I have been volunteering at my mums office for the past couple weeks and her boss has offered me an apprenticeship. I just can’t help but feel slightly guilty because I feel like I haven’t earned it and not got a job the normal way. I’m worried people are going to treat me different or say “you only got the job because your mum works there”.

3) I also struggle with social anxiety, so I had to stop my driving lessons because I was feeling physically sick after each lesson. I know it’s an important skill and I do plan to pick them up again in the new year, I’m just dreading the whole process again because I’ve already had so many hours and I just feel like I’m never going to pass. I’m thinking about trying it in a new area because the area I live it’s really hard and the test routes are places I won’t really be going to.

Sorry this is so long, these are just my exhausting daily thoughts and I don’t really know how to handle everything anymore. I feel so tired and drained 😭