Everything I do is wrong..?

Hi, I'm Imogen, 30 from UK - and it would seem that everything I do is wrong. I have sat and spent many month reviewing every single situation that has stuck out to me as well 'not gone to plan'. Between being bullied at every school I attended, I finally got popularity in College until my bf killed himself and then I got the blame from 'friends', I've had multiple boyfriends who have abused me both mentally and physically, and my none existing friends list etc ..and where/how I went wrong / how to even fix it.. How I keep finding myself here? I'm a "I'll do anything I can for anyone" kinda person and get used a lot.

The last 11 year's I've pretty much been house bound disabled, I rarely go out and there for the internest I guess is my best way of meeting people which is less than ideal. I have joined many communities over the years inc facebook groups for crafting, anxiety, fibromyalgia, depression, friend making in the UK etc.. and seems I'm always met with the same thing: A bunch of people eager to get to know me, tell me about themselves and then ignore me unless they want something from me or can use me for their personal gain some how. - Surely that's not how friendships work right? But yes I keep attracting these same people!! Over the years I've had a bunch of bad experiences and due to being hacked by my ex at christmas I completly started a fresh in January after meeting me new bf (of 6 months now).

But here's one of my recent experiences: I very recently joined a craft group on Facebook to try and advertise selling my handmade jewellery. I actually felt I blelonged somewhere for the first time in a super long time, I started talking to people.. Plus there's quite a community on there of new people asking things like 'am I priced too high/low' 'how do I take product photos' 'what does X mean' etc so I decided to give some friendly advice based on college education and hands on experience and research. Next I knew I'm being attacked by the admin telling me I told someone something I really didn't..!! I left, upset that I can't do anything right, even when just trying to help!! She soon realised I was right and appologised and spent the whole afternoon begging me to rejoin the group and apologising. I reluctantly did and as I did she made me a group mod. Next day she had made this other woman an admin. We seemingly were getting on well when this new admin started telling me what I can and can't do on my own social media!! I apologised and explained that I have anxieties, depression, fibromyagia and a bunch of other medical problems and that I am socially awkward and didn't mean to offend anyone. She litterally straight away used that against me and called me out and said if I am looking for a fight then to bring it. - I'm so confused. I returned to the other admin to straighten it out and she posted a blast out about how I need to earn peoples trust and that's why I'm only a mod and I can't go crying to admin when something goes wrong and basically degraded me infront of everyone. I deleted all my posts and left and then got some nasty messages about how I can't take my toys and run when life gets hard. I honestly don't understand, I honestly don't know how to function.

And the only person who sticks by me is my bf and now seems his ex is trying to cause shit between us and of course he's trying to protect me but in doing so he's taking the blame for something she's accusing me of despite she's fabricated the whole thing to make me look bad in his eyes.

I don't know how to be any more. I have tried to make friends. It just doesn't work out. I asked my bf why he even likes me and he said "because you're amazing, beautiful, funny, talented, caring and I love you." I asked him why no one else can see that and he assured me they can just some people are crap and exploite good people.