Feeling hurt

Hi, I'm 22 and I have all kinds of anxiety but mostly social anxiety, and depression so I'm not sure where to post.

Because of my depression and anxiety I really don't have any close friends, I have people I was really close with and drifted from best friend to the general term friend because they're more than an acquaintance but not really someone I talk to except once in a great while.

Anyways, I just sent a friend a message saying that I was sorry it was late but and i hope i wasnt disturbing them but wanted to say hi and apologize for not being in touch lately and that I hoped they were doing well. So they send me a message back of a picture of beer cups that just says, "beer pong". So I thought about what to say for 12mins and just replied, "Okay. Sorry to bother you. Have fun"

I'm just really hurt because it takes a lot for me to reach out to anyone because I feel like I'm too inferior to talk to them and I generally don't express my feelings for them or really anyone except my little girls and my husband. Anyways, I have only told this friend and one other person besides my husband about my anxiety and depression.

It just hurts to never be accepted anywhere I go so I just isolate myself to protect myself because people always use me or just see the real me and decide they like the fake happy me better. I'm kind to everyone and help anytime I'm able to, but it's all for naught. Can anyone relate or give me any advice? It's just like this is why I have walls..