Hi
I don't really know if I have anxiety. But I get super shy around people I don't know and tend to over think a lot of things I have stage fright. As every time as a student when it time to present my body shake, I jitter around and everything feels hot I tend to start sweating. And start crying. I used to be bully so tend to talk very low but I worked on it. Im always wonder if people are judging me. That I hate eating in school. Also I never dated because I don't want to screw it up.
I tend to regret a lot and hate opening myself. I have so many phobia and sometime I just feel super lonely. I have had suicidal thoughts super young around 8 to 10 but I got over it I guess. I tend to keep things in and always smile. And I finally cry i make sure no one hears me. I was scared to do therapy cause I dont want be judge or for them to laugh at MY problems. Since I told my mom about them before and she laughed and told the whole family and they laugh at my face. And sometime bring it up to joke about it. I had animal phobia for years with dogs being the worst. And everytime I react to a dog even when im crying my family laugh at me and bring the dog closer telling me to get over it its not a big deal.
I feel like people don't take me serious or important since every time my problems and pains seems to be a joke or not as serious but everytime its someone else it main priority. People always tend to say im wrong even if im right. And only care about me or think about me when it benefits them. Also people don't listen to me when I talk im always cut off so they can say something stupid or so they can say what I said like they came up with it.
