How I am Feeling Today
I am having mixed feelings today. Generally, my anxiety and depression are worse at night so it might just be the time of day, but lately I've been feeling relieved and somewhat depressed and anxious.
I am leaving a job that is extremely stressful and dysfunctional. This shift is bringing me the relief I need but still plenty of stress and worry about finances. I am relieved, however, to be leaving this horrid job behind. At the same time, I feel frustrated that I can't find work that doesn't exacerbate my mental health issues. I know that I can't tolerate the kind of work conditions that many others without depression/anxiety/PTSD might be able to navigate and my mental illnesses make me feel different. Some days I just want to be normal!
@Queersome Hi there, thanks so much for opening up to us! Anxiety and depression sadly go hand in hand; they make a mean combo. I am proud that you took the initiative to leave your previous role for your own health. Job hunting is quite stressful to say the least, and it is definitely a challenge to find decent work, especially concerning mental illness. How have you been coping lately?
If you ever need to talk with someone, please feel free to reach out to the listeners here at any time. Best wishes, and good luck with the job hunt! :)
tired of not being able to talk about things frightened i will get yelled at why did i get treated like that what did i do to deserve that will it ever be the same
depressed i feel like no one wants to be near me or they don't want to know me abandoned and worried feel like screaming I'm still here
feel low when i was feeling god about myself they had to go and ruin it i am fat i look a mess i look like a that's what someone said to me years ago it still effects me now why would someone say them things without thought of another person well due to their name calling i feel terrible about myself i have no self respect or worth left i look in the mirror and see a fat person a big body a small face i feel so low i try to hide
