I don’t know what to do

Hello everyone, I’m new here and this is my first thread. I’m a 19 year old girl. I usually never reach out for help, and I always just shove my problems aside and try to help others, but my anxiety has become really bad and I don’t know how to get better. It’s like I have dug myself bellow rock bottom. I have been bottling up my feelings and now I can’t help myself. I don’t remember what happiness feels like anymore. I usually never have troubles in school, but even that has started to become an issue. The past two weeks have been hell, and I have been constantly crying and overthinking. I couldn’t rlly eat much for a week because the stress had made me so intensely nauseous. I lost a lot of weight aswel, and I’ve been worrying my family. This past week has been constant stress eating which really did not help with my self image. I live with my parents, but I couldn’t sleep in my own room anymore because it felt like my walls were drowning me. After 4 days of sleeping in the living room, my uncle suggested to stay over at his place, which really helped, because I can actually talk to him and he understands me. I don’t want to go back home because my parents don’t understand how I feel and I can’t tell them everything which makes things very complicated. I’m also dealing with heartbreak, which got really bad these past two weeks. I feel very depressed, and the panic attacks get really bad because of the overthinking. I have only had bad experiences with therapy, so I’m hesitant to reach out to a psychologist again. I don’t think anyone will take the time to read this, and that’s fine, because typing this out already makes me feel a bit better. If you did, thank you and I hope you have a great day :) (posting this is terrifying how do ya’ll do this?😂)