I don't know what to do

Hi my name is noor and I want to share my feelings that I guess I feel very lonely. NO ONE loves me .my father do his work and my mother don't understand me and my siblings also don't support and understand my feelings. And my friends I can't tell everything about my life because they all are happy they will not understand me their mother father is very caring and supportive . I don't why I feel like this but the way fo talking and behaviour of my family hurts me .They always taunt me hurt me but I say nothing to them .I am in first year and want to become a doctor. I don't study because of tiredness and I sleep alot dun know why because in pakistan there is lockdwon due to covid colleges etc are all close !Please guide me what to do