I'm Scared One Day I Might Snap And Go Crazy!!!!!!!!!
Hye guys, for the past year I've been struggling with anxiety. I think I have every form of anxiety there is. Social, general, health etc. Everything scares me. Lately I've been feeling on edge. All my negative thoughts seem to be multiplied. Especially with all of this tension and I feel in my neck, head, and back. It's there all day everyday and it bothers the hell out of me. Also I've been dealing with intense derealization. I don't know if it due to this muscle tension or the anxiety itself but I haven't been feeling like myself and I've been feeling extremely disconnected from life. I have absolutely no friends. I am quiet and always in my head. I am 26 and fear that I will never make friends and always be alone. Recently I started having thought that one day I might actually go crazy. You know how you hear those news stories about quiet people who are a loner snap and go out and commit terrible acts, I fear that I too may snap one day and ultimately be that "Nice, quiet guy who stayed to himself." I feel so helpless and alone and don't know who I am or what to do anymore.
What If people Don't See Me?! What if they only see my faults Hello! am I there or am I here?...
Thoughts turn around in your head with ever out ceasing even when your sleeping.
walking though the hall feeling you distant shadow walking through the halls while others walk.
soon there is a screeching voice like little dominions only listing to their opinions.
I tremble and cry when I see the face of another only of the fear to relive this notion in motion again.
But then a sudden breeze takes me of my knees silence voice .
Winds soothe and rocks me tell me these are your worries these area your fear these are nothing but what told of and not of you in the past......
This is how me my anxiety works.
@rchrbl26 Anxiety is compulsive, much of what you're feeling is a single projection based on fear and insecurity repeating itself in your head causing an overwhelming feeling of stress and pain. I understand how you're feeling, you're stronger than this accumulation of ideas. That you have to be sure of. Can you tell me if you're currently seeing a psychologist or a psychiatrist to help control and vanquish this problem?
@easypeace no I am not at the moment. I don't have insurance so getting help is hard which is why I seek support from this forum.
@rchrbl26 Good choice :)
@rchrbl26 Just reading the title i can assure you that one never goes crazy!
Hang on and whatever happens tell yourself that your mind is playing tricks on you and always remember YOU ARE IN CONTROL!
