I’m alive haah

So I don’t really know how to describe it other than a fog. I feel like I’m suffocating under all my stress and I’m having these huge bouts of just full on crying out of nowhere. I just feel sad and tired all the time, at least when I’m not manic, fidgety, and anxious.

I just don’t think I’ll ever feel like…normal again? Not that normal is the best thing, but some stability would be nice..