I’m drowning and keep doin worse

so our financial demands are insane.

between rates up, and second child starting daycare.. we’ve added 1.2k on our monthly costs and were barely scrapping by before. Like we live meaner we’ve never even taken a vacation.. 4 of us in a tiny old 2 bdrm condo. We work hard but neither have big careers just basic ones.

I feel trapped and like I need to do something but I barely have time for my regular job and it’s slipping.

so I thought I could resell some stuff and spent 3k on stuff. Not all at once but in a few chunks. And now.. we’ll I’m not sure it’ll sell as well as I thought now that I’ve started.

mice fucked up. I was already 2k in debt I didn’t tell my partner about. And don’t tell me to tell cuz I won’t.

im the one whose ‘good with $’. I’m expected to do all the budgeting and shopping and I’m always on my partner about buying junk.. I don’t even get myself anything but this.. this debt thinking I can ‘invest’ in something.

I feel trapped and like why is it so so just impossible to get ahead even just enough to breathe. We can’t even take our kids out to eat at a restaurant. And this was supposed to help but I just screwed up and now it’s weighing me so heavy like I’m being crushed. We don’t mind working but it’s like the pay can’t keep up. One works fulltime plus weekends sidegig.. I work fulltime with a child here parttime I can’t even focus right.. why why is it so hard just to survive. I want to give up.