I'm not enough.

I don't know anything about Anxiety, and I don't want to self-diagonose. But something has be making me feel like this.

Let me start from the beginning; I have always tried my hardest to just be enough. I've always worked for my better future-- to get far, to aim big.

So, that's what I did. I studied, I took harder classes, I skipped hanging out with friends and making memories just so I could be better for school.

I've always been will-driven, I've always found motivation to fight and to keep fighting for that future.

But, now? Now, when I am so close to the finish line, I'm losing the fight. Everyday, it's hard to focus on one thing when there is so much happening. I have clubs to attend, homework, finals, midterms, tests/quizzes, and so much other things due.

There shouldn't be enough time to get it all done, but I find a way.

Before, I would be able to juggle all of that normally.

Now, I find it hard to get out of bed, all while knowing I am just procrastinating my work...which furthers/ruins my whole "I don't have enough time" argument.

But, I just can't help but feel like I'm not enough. I take my ACT and my SATs, and it's not enough. I try so hard in classes, and it's not enough.

I've been crying a lot more as of recently, too, and I can't help it. I cried in my car twice this month, and several times in my room.

Ive noticed a pattern in my eating as well-- I just can't stomach a whole meal anymore, until one day in a week, I just won't be able to STOP eating, like I haven't had enough.

I don't want to stop fighting, or even give up, but I can't take it anymore. I just feel so overwhelmed, and no one has bothered to look my way and lend me a hand. I don't know what to do.