I'm scared
I've been chatting with one guy on a certain website and we were penpals basically. But he's going to be in the country where I live and suggested to meet. I'm seriously afraid because I have no problem talking online but I'm not very talkative in person. I'm too self conscious about what I say. I'm very quiet when I'm with people I don't know. I don't know what people talk about when they go out. I feel like I have nothing I could say that would interest him. I'm just boring in social meetings. Saying that I should just be myself is not very helpful I don't know how to be myself around other people. Yet I feel like I should give it a chance because I should try changing this side of myself. I'm just scared he'll have big expectations and then we meet in reality and it'll be all awkward because of me.
Anyway, I'm just ranting now but I needed to give my thoughts out as I have noone who could listen to me irl.
@eisan Sorry to hear that, but things will be good soon. Let's fight back all adversities 
@eisan Hey Eisan! Meeting someone who you've been talking to online for a while can be daunting for sure, I totally understand that you have concerns about it considering what you've said about what your personality is like when you're in social situations around new people. Have you considered voicing your concerns to them? How do you think they'd react if you told them exactly how anxious and worried you're feeling because you're scared you won't live up to expectations and that you won't know what to say? I'm sure they'll be more than understanding of that, and might even make a little bit more of a conscious effort to reassure you.
@eisan
I understand what you are saying because I feel the same way that you do. It called social anxiety attack.The more we exposure ourself to other people the better it wil get. Start out with something you recently talk about previously that you have in common. I hope everything work out for you. It sound like your really frustrated because of how your feeling. It sound you like your really struggling right now. It will get better I promise you.
