I’m severely depressed and feeling doomed.
Hi. I’ve been my mother’s caregiver for the past seven years but my family treats me like I’m garbage. My mom has it in her living will that I’m to be her primary caregiver and she does not want to be placed elsewhere. Moreover, I live with her so I cannot get paid by the state.
I not only have GAD, but I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder in 2002. I cannot afford therapy nor can I get on disability because I have no recent proof of having troubles at work, due to not having a taxable income in seven years. I want to finish my education but fear it won’t land me a job because I’m 48, and well, ageism.
I have ambitions, but feel they’ve been tossed in the the fire pit. My family does not care about my mental health. They believe it’s something I can will my way out of. I’ve received advice from my mom and others which have only led me to tears.
They don’t bear repeating. I love them, but they are poison.
All I want is hope but struggle to find any.
Is it possible for you to do your self care when your mother is sleep, like meditation, prayer, reading a book, or drinking your favorite beverage?
Hey Barnacles247! After reading what you said, I feel…. connected and less lonely. And I’m so sorry that you have to bear all of that. Taking care of your mom, not getting paid for it, family not treating you like a human being, living with GAD and bipolar I… oh my god. I want you to imagine someone hugging you as you’re reading this. I am hugging you. You’ve been thru so much and are still going thru it. You don’t deserve this much difficulty. Please feel free to reply to this , and I’ll try my best to check in with you
And the fact that you can’t afford therapy… im sorry that you have to go through that. I feel like it’s so so hard for anyone to go thru all of those things without therapy
Hey friend, i felt sad reading all this.. But Be strong.. you can help yourself to come out of all this shit...
I am BiPolar which is a chronicle disease depression and mania mixed. I have to take medicine else I’ll die. By avoiding depression with medication you will be able to continue personal development. Being depressed, I do get comfort by e.g. meditation or receiving healing, but unfortunately only for the time it is ongoing. Then I pushes myself and started my spiritual journey with Dr Ramesh Richard. He hold my hand, took me out from all this shit. Now I am totally fine, enjoying my life.
You can do mediation.. at least 30mins a day exercise is very essential.. Start self care.. try to go the church once in a week. Hope this helps you.
@Barnacles247 Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that you have been suffering from anxiety and depression. My name is Ambereen Haq and I am a trained listener for 7 Cups. If you'd like, you are free to PM for emotional help if needed and I will gladly do my best to respond :)
I know how you feel. Me too!!!!
@Barnacles247
Nice to meet you. I also have severe anxiety. So I understand. I encourage you to think about going back to school even if it's online. I went back to school in my 40s to become a teacher. Some companies will hire older people and even value them.
Try to take care of yourself. I have been trying to walk in the morning and eating healthier. I just want you to know that I do care for you. You have value.
