Lonely depressed anxious
Hey, im 21 male. I've suffered from SA for many years and have had depression for 2 years or more. I lost my friends cause we stopped talking, I have avoidant personality disorder so I only rarely approach first.
I dream of having a friend or a gf, I've spent soon 3 years just working not being social at all. I saved up everything I earned so that one day I can spend it with that one special person that decides to be my friend. But its starting to feel hopeless and pointless because the longer I am lonely the worse my mental health gets, at this point it feels like nobody would want me except for my wealth. I dont tell people about myself because I am afraid they will take advantage of me or say bad things about me. (I'm afraid to buy things too because it could make me seem wealthy and I don't want anyone to take advantage of that) So I walk around in clothes that are years old
I barely leave the house so any kind of comments are really appreciated, its usually the only type of social communication I have.
@prettyfIacko Hello, welcome to Anxiety Support Community! I am glad that you have reached out here! I am really sorry to hear these all, Social anxiety is indeed very tough to deal with and also depression, and that's understandable that we feel for a support system in this struggling phase! And that can be gf or friends too <3 have you checked out our Anxiety self help guied yet? Here you can find for Anxiety and here is for depression
@prettyfIacko I'm really sorry to hear that :( Hi I'm Louise and I've basically lost all my friends too, which stops me from leaving the house because I have no one to see anymore. I've also struggled with depression and feeling alone so in a way your not alone because there are others like you. I really hope things get better for you!
@prettyfIacko you are not your worries , youre not your depression nor anxiety, youre far more better than that. From reading your post youre kind , giving, sincere and heartfelt and most of all a survivor. What I want you to do is everyday do something special for yourself like go to a bookstore, coffee house or even church etc, I promise you you will likely encounter someone there , maybe someone kind with good energy. You have to put one foot in front the other everyday in order to get what youre searching for. Small step is the key .
I been married since August 3rd and now he gone to wore on the road and I have no clue when I see him I am use to to being with him 24/7 so it a big change for me I have anxiety bipolar BLP PTSD so it is hard so I know I have to take it one day at a time but it hard at time so blessings to all that need them