Loosing myself
I really want to sign myself into the hospital. I feel like I'm going to explode in my chest and stomach. I took a partnership with a guy I know who owns a cannabis farm. Well everything he discussed with my wife and I was a lie. He told me I would have 4 people working for me to help with everything. Well it's just my wife and I doing everything. There is way to much to do and we cant keep up. We have the outdoor, indoor, and all the plants in the house. Plus keeping up on the yard. Theres not enough days in a week for everything. I only have a couple months left to go till harvest and make what I was told I would, hopefully. But we have $900 in our checking account. When we started this this year we had $36,000. Him and his friend dont help with anything including bills for the last 4 months. I also just found out I have till next week sometime to pay $3,200 on the light bill or they are shutting my grow rooms down. So her and I are working as fast as we can to come up with that. I have been a farmer one way or the other my whole life. I never thought I would lose my passion for it. My friend says I didn't lose my passion, it was stolen from me. But we cant stop now cause we have so much into it we need to keep going. Its been so bad that for the last few months I'm at least a week short on my meds. I NEED help.
Hello @Chrispy82. I am so sorry you are going through this. I know what it is like to have fellow people who don't do the work they said they would. It is understandable as to why you'd feel the way you do. Do you have a contract written down that states there would be 4 workers, etc? Also, since we are not experts all I can do is tell you that for medical reasons then you should seek immediate medical help if you feel it is urgent.
He was supposed to be getting one done up with his lawyer. And it just so happens it never happen. I do however have a single text message from him and I talking about this for months before I cam here. Absolutely everything he said was gonna happen and was happen and everything we would get back from this.
Oh and my doctor helped me refill my meds plus put me onto 1mg two time s a day of clonazepam for 10 days. Its certainly helping
