Loss & Anxiety

I just loss my best friend mom, she was a big role in my life. I love her dearly and regret not opening up to her like she wanted. I just wish she knew how much I miss her. My mom is her best friend so I’m currently comforting everyone and no one knows I’m hurting. No one sees my pain or even thinks to ask me if I’m ok. One of my friends hugged me the day of the funeral and it was the best feeling. Like I could just let go. But I can’t remember the last time anyone has hugged me. It’s nearly been a month ans everyone seemed to have been slowly moving on but I’m still stuck at the beginning. This was towards the beginning of school. It’s been a couple weeks and I still haven’t started. I try to sit and work but I cant seem to be capable of anything. My brain shuts off and I resort to sleep. And at night when I need to sleep I stay awake for hours. Sometimes with no sleep at all. I feel alone and depressed. I cant think about anything and be happy. Nothing is happy right now. How am I supposed to get better if I can’t even get out of bed.