Lost

I am at a loss.

I recently 'moved' to Texas, alone, to live on a friend's property. They have a really nice area that they are letting me sleep in. But I have to take care of their gardens, yes gardens. There is just so much I am expected to do, that when something goes wrong; I don't know what to do. I don't have a license, and they live 10 miles away from the closest town, their town has less than 2,000 people. In the about three weeks that I have lived here, they have been here about at most 3-4 days. I have been alone for over half the time, and as someone who doesn't like to be alone all the time, I am starting to feel depressed. Then the kitten I just got was killed on Tuesday, I came home to find her right by the fridge. Their dog had done it by accident, and that was the straw that broke the camel's back.

I am visiting home on Friday the 4th, and I am thinking about just staying home. I do not want to make my friends here upset, but at what cost to me? I miss my dog, my family. I hate feeling at a loss, I have no idea what to do.