Overthinking depression/ anxiety

I feel really terrible I graduated last year & took a gap year my father saying I need to either get a job going or go to college [more to the college] but I'm just really confused and upset I have no idea what I want to do or how to get there I'm terrified of going through life and hes not much of help, since I'm an adult now it seems he wants me to do it all by myself which is scary I have extreme anxiety and working just get me panic attacks and I dont think I have plans for college which he also says I'm running out of time ? Which scared me even more. I cant sleep and hardly eat hes hard to talk to and doesnt believe in my mental health I should just be able to go out and do it. Everyone around me has some type of stuff going on but I dont know what I want to do. I'm afraid I'll be kicked out or something and I just dont really know how to talk with him and everytime I do, it doesnt get anywhere other than me crying or having anxiety attacks bc it made it worse I'm so afraid about my future and dont know what to do at this point I'm having the worse thoughts and want to just go through with it, I just cant handle life already, I'm terrified out of my mind and dont know how I'm going to do all this let alone figure it out.