Scared (I'll do the rest later)

auntwas drunk she started to get mad at me for not doing anything in the house even though I cleaned the kitchen and watch my nefew while she was at the cansino gambling and drinking most of the time then I told her that I was going down stairs to the basement to calm myself down since this happened before when she talked me down making me feel small and so I cried in the basement she followed few minutes later saying what's wrong I didn't reply since I was scared she said it again what's wrong but more harshly, forced, and angry I didn't want to say anything so I stayed silent next thing you know she walked down and sat in front of me about 3 or 2 feet away she said it again what's wrong in the same tone then she started to talk about how I should be happy and glad but then she started to talk about my mom about a rumour that happned on Facebook talking shit and lies I just stayed there quiet not doing anything except for crying silently then she started to talk about me being an excuse for a daughter , worthless, lazy, weak, making me feel small hopless,a obstacle for my mom and soon enough and I started to believe it but this is the part I don't understand is what she said It was you know making or trying to convince me to cut or kill myself she told me how to cut with a knife that I got scared seeing blood on her hands saying it wasn't her first soon enough she trying to force me but I stayed silent not doing anything then she started to do more making me scared.