Scared
I'm just tired of this, i can never get close to anyone because i keep pushing people away and there's nothing i can do about it. I'm way too scared to even text people, i always feel like i am being laughed at. My friends probably hate me...i wish i could open up to them and be myself. I understand why they don't text me anymore it's because i'm a bad friend. No matter how hard i try i'll never be good enough for anyone i just feel like giving up. I have no idea how i am going to live with this for the rest of my life every day is a nightmare for me. I'll always be the weird and quiet girl that nobody likes...
@randomperson078
This is very relatable.
I combat it by knowing and accepting who I am. I figure if people think those things when I'm happy and 100% myself then we probably aren't ever going to get along and that's fine
And no friend is perfect but when I feel like I'm not as good of a friend as I could be, I apologize. Then make sure I do better because that's my responsiblity. If people still think badly of me after that then again we probably aren't ever going to get along and that's fine
Being inside makes me think about this stuff a lot too. I hope you can find some peace though :)
@tophat22
Dear Person,
I know it sucks, I know it feels like the undertow is pulling you down, but trust me maybe not today, not tomorrow or even next year but somewhere in future you will get that one small thing right, maybe you will brew the perfect cup of tea or feel that cool breeze on your face and realise that you are glad that you are here, glad that you stuck around for this because, life is that way, we wander off between the darkness and the light but that's how it is, I will also tell you that happy moment will pass soon too and there will be sad moments to, its just the way it is. And you really need to stay.
Anxiously yours,
HealingFox210.
I assure you you are not near as bad a friend as you think you are, and they likely don't hate you as much as you think.
Anxiety's greatest ploy is convincing you everyone hates you to separate you from your support groups. Humans are naturally social creatures, just like wolves- and your brain, the traitorous thing, knows it. So it tries to separate you from other people, cut you off.
My advice is to try and find one friend to lean on- and then go from there. Just once a day, check in with them and make sure they know you still care.
@DalliFlower I actually only want one real friend, somebody to share everything with, without the fear of being judged. I'm still young so i really hope i find that person one day. Even tho i most likely won't but still it may happen. I'm just gonna try to be patient and not let my anxiety get in the way of everything.
You'll find that friend someday, trust me.
@itzmebella I'm sure you ain't a bad friend but a very sweet and an amazing friend. Sometimes we doubt ourselves for a way too much and create our own stories in the brain. The reality is actually reverse. Nobody is perfect but everyone is special. Start loving yourself and embrace everything about you, good, bad, just everything. Accept yourself and be kind to your soul. Focus on the things you love. After some time, start talking to your friends. If you will feel good about you and confident. Everyone will. Always remember, you're amazing and a pretty girl. Do not let your beautiful soul hurt by your own expectations from yourself. The reality is much different. So, do the things that you love and which make you happy:)
@AnneM9 Thank you so much!
