Socially awkward and scared
Ive always hated being around big crowds but over time its gotten worse. Whenever I walk into a room whether its a classroom, restaurant, store or someones house I immediately shut down and feel scared. I feel like everyone is judging me, making fun of me or just staring at every flaw I have. Sometimes it gets really bad and my chest starts hurting and pounding and I have to leave. Sometimes theres no one even paying me any mind but I still feel that way. Sometimes Ill freeze up and cant form a simple sentence or carry on a conversation. And Ill be starting college really soon and Im homeschooled now and when I wasnt before I would isolate my self and people would leave me out anyways even my teachers but I visited my colleges campus and everyones so friendly and talkative and I was just awkward and I shut down. Its just getting worse.
@AliciaO0
From what I can see here you have social anxiety. So where there's people, you get worst.
Honestly being homeschooled wasn't the best option. You just avoid the situation instead of working on it. My advice is you finding professional help to understand why do you even feel this way in the first place. When you find out why, you can work on it and start having a normal life!
Now when you said that you feel that others are talking and looking about you, trust me, that chance is VERY small. I thought the same way but I soon realised people are too selfish for that crap. People most of the times are WAY too focoused on their own lifes to even look around to others. And even if they do look at you they might be admiring you. The chance of being a negative thought is like 10% in 100%.
@Booklover95
I didnt want to be homeschooled but I was at a racist school and my counselor told me I would be nothing and she would fail me on purpose so I couldnt graduate so I had to leave and now that I think about it it got worse from there. The feeling of people talking about me or judging me. And Ill take your advice about getting help. I seen that they have real therapist on here so Ill definitely try that out. Thank you! <3
@AliciaO0
Oh so sorry about your school! Insane that racism still happens nowdays
But be strong. Do what you said, look for a therapist :) Best of luck!