Starting Medication

Well, after several years of on and off panic and varying degrees of anxiety, I finally went to a doctor today and asked for medication. She said I have panic disorder which I kind of already knew, but I didnt want to believe it. I really didnt want to believe that I needed medication. Truthfully, Im a little scared to start taking it, but Im trying to accept that this is the best thing for me right now. Ive been handling my mental illness on my own for a long time. At this moment in time, however, I realize I cant do it on my own. I need support from my loved ones and doctors. Im trying not to be judgemental about my decision and just give myself love. Im doing the best that I can.