Time is going by so quickly and I don't feel I can keep up..

The quote of the title says it all really, and I've said it to somebody in the past but this has actually really just hit me listening to a song from my past and that in just short of two months time it'll mark three years since an event.

I'm a 19 year old male, and I know I am still young but I kind of sit here and feel like I've wasted so many years of my life so far. Years and time that I'm never going to get back. I've spent this getting bullied through school and not really having much of a social life within this time and it's affecting me now.

I recently got into a relationship in June with a girl who means a lot to me already, yet because of being hurt in the past, I've already spent the last two months worrying and being insecure, and that's still something I'm worried about instead of just doing what people tell me to do and that's to just enjoy it whilst I can. I can't see into the future of me and her but I just know in so many years whether we're still going strong or I'm single again or with somebody else, I know I'll hold regrets for worrying too much and again 'Wasting time'

This time last month I was away in Amsterdam with some friends, and this all hit me again that I have wasted so many years and I need to get out there and have more fun in life because you never know what is around the corner. And this is what I tell my friends as well but it never seems to sink in myself.

I'm constantly anxious. I used to be on medication for anxiety but I don't really take it right now, yet time is ticking by so fast and I don't feel like I can keep up with it all. The years seem to be getting faster and faster and people always tell me it's even worse when you get older. So I can just imagine this day when I'm 60 and I blink and a year has passed. It hit me hard three years ago when I left high school. It hit me July last year when I turned 18 and it's hit me again in June when I finished college because it's pretty much proof I'm growing up and getting no younger. Now I'm starting university in a few weeks and I know that's going to fly by so quickly.

I worry a lot for the future. Well I guess I worry a lot in general too. I'm trying my best to give myself the best memories in life. I'm even going to Dublin for a few days in just over a week with a friend just to actually get out there but even so I'll probably come home and it'll feel like I haven't even been, just like Amsterdam because the time flew so quickly.

Any advice or stories out there?