Trapped

I've felt trapped for my entire life in what people THINK I should represent and be doing. Ever since my very early teens I've wanted to evolve as a person, but everyone has this view of me, telling me that "[I] wouldn't do that" and such. As a result of this judgement through my entire life, I've been terrified to grow into the person I want to be. This also couples with my existing anxiety about everything, which makes it all so much worse. I've been trapped in a bubble for so long, unable to outwardly grow and progress through life in a way that makes me comfortable. I rely on the fantasy of escaping to a new place where no one knows me and I'll be able to live my dream life to get me through, but I run into a new wall of anxiety. I feel completely removed from my current self in the image of what I should be or what I want to become.