We have OSDD- and as the host I don't know what to do.
I'm not the core- not the original person. I'm just an alter- and I've got everyone tricked into thinking I'm her- and I'm not even a her. I'm a him, stuck in a her's body. I have a problem where I tell myself I'm not even a real person- I'm the result of our core being molested by the oldest brother from as long as they could remember to the age of ten. I'm from the core being abused by the father until they were 14. I'm not a real person- and I don't know what to do with that. I'm the host- so I should be able to handle that... right? I'm not sure what to do, to be honest. Do I keep fighting- keep pretending to be who I'm not until the body can get properly diagnosed- or do I be myself? Do I fight to show I'm my own person, or do I accept that at some point I might just... Integrate. Disappear, without a trace. I don't know what to do anymore, to be honest.
- Logan, Host, 16
@TheBeaucoupSystem I'm sorry Logan. That's sounds like a terrible burden that has been placed on your shoulders. I can't imagine the type of identity crisis that you have been dealing with. I'm proud of you for reaching out despite how long it took for someone to finally respond.
I'll admit that I don't have OSDD or have had any first hand experience with someone suffering from OSDD. But if you would like to keep discussing your options as the host, I am here to listen and help. I'm sure its a big decision to reveal yourself to others when so many are convinced you are the core. I'm sure it has been weighing on you whether you have been making the right decisions as the host. That's a lot of responsibility for you to carry alone. Please don't hesitate to reach out again if you are still struggling and you need additional help.
