Weird situation about the future
It's a hard situation to understand, but I have this attachment to the idea of living in this one specific place, and it keeps me going through school and stress because it's a ray of hope; this will all be worth it when I finally get to move there or be there. I have the opportunity to visit this place this summer, but I'm worried that once I visit it, all my years of dreaming and buildup will be over, and I won't have that same drive and strive throughout the rest of my education. It just keeps me going, and I'm stressing over it. It has this glamour on it, this sparkle in my mind, but what happens if I visit it and it loses the sparkle? I lose motivation so quickly in school and it's the only thing keeping me going. Idk what to do.
@raerae03 I heard an expression once, "Life is what happens while we are dreaming". If the place doesn't turn out as you'd like or imagine, something equally as wonderful will enter your life. Just be open to infinite possibilities, and good luck with school. My life is nothing like I'd imagined it when I was 18, but at 48 I'm happy, I have what I need. Life is going to give you different paths, make educated choices and surround yourself with love and light and you'll make the right ones.