Who am I ?

I've realized that I'm hiding from everyone. I think 5 times about how I should react to something so that I don't do anything wrong. If I don't do everything perfectly on the outside, I automatically feel uncomfortable. I'm a confident person, but only when I'm absolutely convinced of my cause. No one could accept me the way I am when no one is around me. I'm so scared of meeting people, even friends, because they already know me in one way and I can't risk loosing this identity I built...

I'm alone, even if I'm not, but I've become adept at hiding it so much that I sometimes think I'm acting totally normal myself. It's only when I'm alone that I see the truth about myself, I'm usually so focused on doing everything right. The way the others expect...

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