Why am I SO different??
I'm now 25 and honestly still feel like a kid/teen. I have no interest in things people my age would normally have interest in. I don't have friends (by choice), I find relationships cringy and all things romantic, I don't like going out (parties, clubs etc), I have no interest in drinking or smoking, I can go on and on. Why don't I have interest in any of those things?? Why don't I ever get the feeling of missing someone? I don't have to see my family for a long time and I won't miss them and they're not bad people. Why don't I find anyone to be attractive (guys)? What is it that's keeping me from not wanting to be in a relationship? I want to be like everyone else but it's extremely difficult. People see me as very boring and lame. No one likes me I know that for a fact. I know whenever someone sees me they automatically think there's something wrong with me and I don't want people to view me that way. I have an older sister and she makes me feel even worse about who I am. I don't need her to tell me I'm not normal, I'm a different breed, I'm retarded. I've been trying to get a job working from home but it's not working out. I'm tired of people not giving me a chance. I feel like I'm cursed! I want to work from home, start a online business, get a small house, maybe a car and just live alone. Very boring I know but I'm not sure why. I don't want to be this way. Once I hit 40, that's it. I still don't understand what's my purpose here. I feel like God placed me here for my family to use me for babysitting, doing their hair and for no one to like me. It's a lot more I want to share but this is already too long.
@Brittanyyjones24 Everyone doesn't like going to clubs and drinking, and some people are even aromantic. Or maybe you aren't interested in relationships because you feel you need to close off? The most important thing to me reading this is wanting you to feel free to determine for yourself what legitimately makes you happy without so much pressure about what everyone else thinks and wants.
@Brittanyyjones24 Hello Brittany! First of all sorry for my english.. Second, i understand you! i feel the same way, like i don't match with anybody. I have a boyfriend but i feel i don't love him. I try to make new friends and i can't, i think they considering me boring or not interesting..
So until i decide to go to a therapist, i think you better start doing things for yourself and maybe get a job amd move it alone, do what you want for your career and job and after the other thing will come.
Have a nice day!
@Brittanyyjones24 Hello Brittany! I think you should not let yourself be conditioned about what the other people think. From my point of view, if you don't have friends and you don't miss having friends, you should just enjoy that situation. Don't force yourself to want things that the others want. I think that you, being as you are, are a very interesting person. Your dream of having a house and a car and living alone is a very valid one. Maybe you are a very introverted person, but this is neither a fault nor a quality. We are all different, everyone in their own way. And don't worry, you are not retarded. Some people just hurry to place labels on those whom they don't understand, but those labels don't define you. As regards working online, try to search different types of things that you could do on the computer, don't limit yourself to just one thing. I think it would be so nice if you manage to have the life that you want! And it's easier to achieve it when you want less than other people. Maybe this is a problem of our modern society, we want too many things that we can't possible have. Living a simple life is a great dream and it also means you are wise. Embrace who you are and don't let the others dictate what you should want or do! I wish you good luck with finding/creating a job, which will allow you to be independent. A big hug!