so on edge

honestly the past couple of months have been absolutely terrible metal health wise. i still managed to do okay in the beginning but i just feel so overwhelmed right now. Ive spent all year prepping for my final graduation exams which kept getting postponed and then immediately afterwords for entrance exams and im pretty sure i bombed those.. i feel like I'm spiralling cause i have no clue what im gonna do if i dont get in anywhere this year. ON top of all that my mum's explosive reaction to everything has me constantly on edge in my own home.. like if she's mad or upset one always has to be on eggshells cause dealing with the consequences of arguing tend to be more exhasuting than just keeping silent.. i havent had a good laugh in my own house in months and im just so tired