thinking so much

i don't even know where to start.... since the beginning of august I've been struggling with the new semester at school (i study in a boarding school so i only go home 3 months in a year) mostly because of my job here, I've grown to hate that place for no apparent reason and I can't bring myself to work for a week already. and they can't fire me because it's educational work but i feel like a burden because i can't go to work and i hate this