Crying

Hello, this is my first time posting, and also my first month of actively looking for help besides YouTube videos in regards to my mental health. I was wondering does anyone else break down and cry as a symptom? I've always done this even as a child, and it's so embarrassing. I never hear or read about anyone having this particular problem. It's usually sweating, rapid heart rate (which I also experience, but usually only during anxiety attacks when I'm alone), or even vomiting. I always cry, and it doesn't matter if it's confrontational or just a chat. I can feel it coming, and sometimes I can distract myself enough to just get wet blurry eyes. However, If I'm talking to a group of supervisors, or if I feel like I'm being judged, in trouble, disappointing someone, ect. 9 out of 10 times it will result in me crying in front of everyone. I don't know what to do. If I know I have a meeting of sorts I'll take a pen and sometimes a notebook as a distractor, and every now and then I'll get lucky and it works, but my voice still gets shaky, and my mind isn't as sharp, so of course I'll end up thinking days, weeks, years later about that one moment, and how I wish I could have done or said certain things differently.