I feel so alone

It's not you. Maybe you haven't yet found the right people. Perhaps other new, beautiful people are waiting for you in another place. Keep your heart open, keep doing what you like and try to not take it personally. I understand if that's a hard thing to do but give it a try anyway I'm sure you are a awesome person!

Do you think the fear in its self of losing the ones around you could actually be reflecting in your action, or maybe in your ways of how your coming off to these relationships of yours? You know the saying we create what we fear..? Well... It's a bunch of crap lol. I hated ppl telling me this.. my response to it would always be .."my fear comes from past out comes, and not just once or twice, a consistency of these same outcomes" now.. what i do believe though... is self awareness, owning up to things (if caused), like acknowledging... But we as ppl don't always see a simple picture that could be right in plan sight.. which is completely Normal, how could we unless... Or untill it's pointed out for us to perhaps see or maybe understand in a different way.. like perspective it's all about how you view things right? Maybe the way you're looking at these ended friendships or the fear of future ended relationships, are feelings you may have towards yourself.. it could be how you are perceiving yourself at the end of the day, and most importantly.. in the end of these friendships. Maybe you have a story, been through alot of crap in ur life? that has unfairly shattered your confidence, which understandably has created this fear of abandonment.. that in its self can cause a storm of anxiety ..which then, we tend to not see in ourselves what it is we are doing towards the people we love, like obsession type of behavior..or being more of a taker and not so much a giver, or maybe ONLY being a giver and so we just attract those that just take us for advantage at the end (story of my life 😏) anyways, it's People like Us and I do include myself too have a tendency of pushing people away. Now I always say if these people can be pushed away they werent meant to be in my life in the first place and that goes for friendships, as for a partnership type of relationship... Any lover willing to not allow me to push them away is the type of strength I always look for lol.. At the end of the day you are awesome and you need to know that about yourself don't take it so personal even though easier said than done though right? they're not worth being in your life and if so, be it ...try then to belieave in the words you are saying, how it's common for people to come in and out of your life....? If so then say Hey fuck it... The world is boring anyways it's good to have people come in and out spicing it up every now and then.. my biggest thing is learning to love yourself and know you are worth whatever happens at the end because things happen for a reason... learn all this, believe in it, lose that fear in pushing people away regardless, go with the flow. And listen, who says it's u anyway? Why do u gotta be left feeling like ur not good enough to be friends with.... FUKK that lol, try to look within them and see what it is that you saw and/or felt it wasn't right...look at these failed friendships are relationships and figure out what wasn't even good enough for you even, to waste time on with hurt feelings and continuous questions.. No more worrying for you to continue a friendship with these people anyways... 😎🤗