Social Anxiety
I hate my social anxiety it’s ruining my life, I Can’t even leave my room to say hello to simple relatives, my mum had invited people over and I was balling my eyes out in my room I Was absolutely petrified and my mum was so mad and called me weird.Usually it’s because I’m afraid of getting judged or embarrassing myself but it happens with people I don’t even want to impress and it takes me a lot of courage before talking to someone or even texting. I find everything embarrassing and still remember horrible moments from years ago. Lately I lost all my friends and my whole school hates me and talks about me and I have to go back soon and im getting really anxious and cry every time I think about school. And I have already told my mum but she can’t do anything and my biggest fear is being alone and I’m going to have no one and I won’t have a partner and at lunch times I have to spend my time in the bathrooms. And I had already previously moved school from bullying and it’s happening again. I feel so hopeless.
I'm sorry that you're feeling like this I want to tell you that you're clearly introvert and that being said thing that you should do is not trying harder to socialize and make friends, but improve your relationship with yourself, I was also always scared of being alone and lonely and to be seen as a loser, but it's not true as long as you got your back everything will be fine for people like us it's very tiring to socialize and make friends you should make them also, but first work on yourself you have lots of videos on YouTube about these stuff just search what you need and you also have very good therapy activities on Pinterest they are fun to me and help me improve my mood you can always try journaling and thing that will help you improve yourself are bunch of questions about yourself and you need to answer them that way you get to know yourself better that's also on Pinterest. I got carried away a little bit, but when you start enjoying your own company others will be less important, but rememeber you should have some friends 1 or 2 you need some kind of human contact just to stay healthy and it is hard but you'll get through it and find some hobby to keep you occupied when you have too much free time. I'm proud of you for reaching out that's hard you should of see me I was like little scared cat and remember self harm is never answer in that desperate need to feel something you'll lose everything that's worth feeling, you didn't say anything about this and I hope this is not too sensitive for you, but I just wanted to remind you to stay away from that dark cliff in your head one jump can cost a lot. I know you're strong and you'll be fine, stay safe, drink lot of water and get a pet. Love you❤✌🏻(if you get a pet or already have send me pic❤🥺)
Omg thanks that made me feel so much better and good advice and I actually heard somewhere that when you think that your being judged most likely that’s just you projecting your thoughts onto overs so I agree about having a good relationship with yourself. I have been working on this for sometime but hate myself and feel guilty about stuff from the past
and I’ve realised that I kind of push people away scared to be hurt well apparently I was ruining this girl from being a normal teenager because I was to depressed and an attention seeker. Well I do lack affection sooo…. Also about the self harm I keep having negative thoughts that I want to do it I have tried but want to go deeper but I will try to not think about it, it’s just that nothings getting better I keep waiting then I got my hopes up and then something allways happens and I get sad again. Because of my loneliness I’ve bean asking to get a cat and my family have agreed but I have to wait sometime. Thanks for noticing me and for the amazing advice have a nice day or night💗
