Social anxiety even working remotely

Hi everyone. I hope I'm not alone in this. I live alone and I'm an immigrant in canada since 2014. I got my current job 7 or 8 months ago after a pretty bad previous work experience. It's remote, and as an introvert, is what I wanted. But recently (I dont know if it's because of this lockdown that's making me feel even more lonely and isolated), I can't perform at work and I'm hating my job. Long and constant zoom meetings with a demanding boss, is getting so annoying. He pays 30k a year. It's so low for a web development job. I live paycheck to paycheck. Living in toronto is way too expensive. I have worked hard but some managers and CEOs think they are making us a favour by giving (an 'underpaid') job. I mean, for that wage, I'd rather do something less demanding. I dont want to sound ungrateful but honestly I crave so much a job where I don't have to talk to anyone. Maybe I'll start looking into jobs like that. I feel like I cant handle people. I just want to escape. It seems 8 months is my limit for jobs. After that, there's always something going on that makes me resign. I feel so scared and alone. Nobody would care how I feel or my struggles. I really fight against this but sometimes it's just useless to fight and just accept I will never be what I am not. I get hurt so easily and i hate to be so oversensitive. I had a past of being bullied as a kid and those fears still show in my daily life. I wish I was more thick-skinned and strong.