Am I "wired wrong"for being on the autism spectrum?

Most of symptoms, situations and bad thoughts related to autism, to me seem to be "incorrect humans" or "broken people". I can live normally but as soon as I begin to think about being autistic, I cry. I remember the pain of being so weak to overstimulation but also because of having a complete different view of everything compared to neurothypical people, and having hiperfixacions like I couldn't focus correctly and think normally.

It's so sad and desperating when I have no other answer that my brain is "wired wrong", like the song "Wired Wrong" by Steam Powered Giraffe says (it was written by a person in the spectrum too): my brain is all wired wrong and that's how it's been all along. Sometimes seems the best thing that happened to me, but many times seems a tragic story about my biggest shame. I just think that the negative things of my autism spectrum condition can't be compensated by the positive ones.

I struggle understanding some of the most basic human behaviors such as romantic love and silly jokes. I feel like a mistake.