Moving past Self Hatred

Yes I do have autism, and I'm aware that it doesn't make me any less human but I feel like it does. My perspective on my Autism is filled to the brim with pure disgust because I have ruined potential friends and my reputation over and over again its depressing. I have been in the habit of equally being afraid of putting myself out there, and hating myself too much to do so because I could mess up.

My self hatred is so strong that I Disqualify myself before even trying, and I want to break out of this because I want to talk to people on *** and make friends their but I watch those I that I think are really cool and those I wish to be friends and with, behind a window and it hurts

I am aware that I can get all the social skills, and all the friends I could want but I can't take the next step if I don't give myself a chance. How can I move past this?