Help?
I apologize for using this thread (possibly) without having bipolar disorder, but I tried to find a listener for this and I couldn't find a great one so I've decided to come here. So for a while I've known somethings been wrong, I used to think it was just chronic depression, but lately things have been getting a lil bit worse and I've been thinking there's something bigger happening.
I thought for a minute I was developing schizophrenia (I sound silly I know, but the symptoms really fit), but a few days ago I was feeling just awesome and I noticed my eyes were more open and glossy, and I remembered this article I had read about noticing manic eyes in those with bipolar, and I decided to do more research on it. Admittedly I haven't gotten too far into my research, but from what I've read I fit the description almost completely, except I haven't had a manic episode yet (I'm only 16 though) and I don't have a couple of other symptoms (I'll get to those later).
Ever since the day I noticed my pretty eyes I have been in a wonderful mood. I can actually laugh now, which I haven't been able to do in at least 3 years. I've also been having trouble getting to sleep, like right now it's 4am and I have to get up in a couple of hours but I just can't seem keep my eyes closed. It feels like I'm on Adderall but without the sick feeling. Okay, it looks like I'm running out of space so I'll continue this in a comment.