Schizoaffective depressions hallucinations
Always grown up with them 18 in total in my head. 19 came up yesterday being the normal host/primary co host cause nobody else could handle it even with different shifts
I don't know much of them yet so
Personality: everyone's blended.
@Wifidazze
I'm sorry to hear that you are dealing with schizoaffective depression and hallucinations. It sounds like you have a lot going on with having multiple personalities or alters as well. Have you talked to a therapist or mental health professional about this? They can provide support and guidance on how to manage your symptoms and work towards improving your quality of life.
I have a therapist since 2022,(multiple past therapists growing up got a new one.) a pyscharist to help with med adjustment since 2020 December, waiting for a assessment with pyscharist for did osdid this month cause once I gotten into a group support online elsewhere (and I have multiple places in person and online groups zoom, chat forum.) So far my pyscharist never believed in me for a long time due to my slow awareness and clumsily explained a lot till
Than I opened up everything to a certain online chat forum of hallucinations,these people, and many called out to get it checked instead of keeping my question to myself from being shut down that it's just schizoaffective depression and pyschotic disorder and now there's 20 of people.
Majority of them are good/has rehabilitated and in remission and some bio chemically resistant and in rehabilitation. From meds, med adjustment,new meds added and some of the symptoms helps except their not high enough to make things gone cause I don't want them gone, their there for a reason when no one could be there for me. Even to the destructive ones, it's not their fault.
All in my head and none of them believes their alters despite understanding different paths in life/roles to help while masking symptoms of being different as much possible, I am safe enough and going to a crisis house in April that's opened, coulsnt get in there earlier for 45 days due to some situations I won't be specific cause there long term not short term like the pysch ward and has various treatment not just med adjustments and short classes.
@Wifidazze I'm glad to hear that you have a therapist and psychiatrist to support you! It can be challenging to find the right mental health professionals who understand and believe us, especially when dealing with conditions like DID/OSD. It's great that you've found a supportive community online and in person, and that they encouraged you to seek a proper assessment for your symptoms.
It's important to find a balance that works for you and your individual experiences. It's great to hear that you have found some relief through medication, and recognize that the presence of your alters serves a purpose for you!
I have a therapist since 2022,(multiple past therapists growing up got a new one.) a pyscharist to help with med adjustment since 2020 December, waiting for a assessment with pyscharist for did osdid this month cause once I gotten into a group support online elsewhere (and I have multiple places in person and online groups zoom, chat forum.) So far my pyscharist never believed in me for a long time due to my slow awareness and clumsily explained a lot till
Than I opened up everything to a certain online chat forum of hallucinations,these people, and many called out to get it checked instead of keeping my question to myself from being shut down that it's just schizoaffective depression and pyschotic disorder and now there's 20 of people.
Majority of them are good/has rehabilitated and in remission and some bio chemically resistant and in rehabilitation. From meds, med adjustment,new meds added and some of the symptoms helps except their not high enough to make things gone cause I don't want them gone, their there for a reason when no one could be there for me. Even to the destructive ones, it's not their fault.
(Sleeping meds helps, I have learnt many coping tools, ASMR, music helps too)
All in my head and none of them believes their alters despite understanding different paths in life/roles to help while masking symptoms of being different as much possible, I am safe enough and going to a crisis house in April that's opened, coulsnt get in there earlier for 45 days due to some situations I won't be specific cause there long term not short term like the pysch ward and has various treatment not just med adjustments and short classes.
Sorry in advanced for multiple copies,lag sucks for me on the app
@Wifidazze
My sincere condolences. I’ve experienced distressing hallucinations beginning in childhood myself. My heart goes out to you. Are you safe? Please sleep if you can. 🙏🏻
I have a therapist since 2022,(multiple past therapists growing up got a new one.) a pyscharist to help with med adjustment since 2020 December, waiting for a assessment with pyscharist for did osdid this month cause once I gotten into a group support online elsewhere (and I have multiple places in person and online groups zoom, chat forum.) So far my pyscharist never believed in me for a long time due to my slow awareness and clumsily explained a lot till
Than I opened up everything to a certain online chat forum of hallucinations,these people, and many called out to get it checked instead of keeping my question to myself from being shut down that it's just schizoaffective depression and pyschotic disorder and now there's 20 of people.
Majority of them are good/has rehabilitated and in remission and some bio chemically resistant and in rehabilitation. From meds, med adjustment,new meds added and some of the symptoms helps except their not high enough to make things gone cause I don't want them gone, their there for a reason when no one could be there for me. Even to the destructive ones, it's not their fault.
All in my head and none of them believes their alters despite understanding different paths in life/roles to help while masking symptoms of being different as much possible, I am safe enough and going to a crisis house in April that's opened, coulsnt get in there earlier for 45 days due to some situations I won't be specific cause there long term not short term like the pysch ward and has various treatment not just med adjustments and short classes.
I have a therapist since 2022,(multiple past therapists growing up got a new one.) a pyscharist to help with med adjustment since 2020 December, waiting for a assessment with pyscharist for did osdid this month cause once I gotten into a group support online elsewhere (and I have multiple places in person and online groups zoom, chat forum.) So far my pyscharist never believed in me for a long time due to my slow awareness and clumsily explained a lot till
Than I opened up everything to a certain online chat forum of hallucinations,these people, and many called out to get it checked instead of keeping my question to myself from being shut down that it's just schizoaffective depression and pyschotic disorder and now there's 20 of people.
Majority of them are good/has rehabilitated and in remission and some bio chemically resistant and in rehabilitation. From meds, med adjustment,new meds added and some of the symptoms helps except their not high enough to make things gone cause I don't want them gone, their there for a reason when no one could be there for me. Even to the destructive ones, it's not their fault.
(Sleeping meds helps, I have learnt many coping tools, ASMR, music helps too)
All in my head and none of them believes their alters despite understanding different paths in life/roles to help while masking symptoms of being different as much possible, I am safe enough and going to a crisis house in April that's opened, coulsnt get in there earlier for 45 days due to some situations I won't be specific cause there long term not short term like the pysch ward and has various treatment not just med adjustments and short classes.
P.s.lag sucks for me on the app, sorry for multiple copies
Now there's 20 since yesterday. Just when I'm getting used to it,
As co host and the 19th being host.
Waiting for assessment with pyscharist for did/osdid cause pyschotic disorder isn't just about losing reality for me in this month and meds works for some things to collaborate now disappear cause I don't want them go so this been a slow awareness and clumsily explained before group support elsewhere to understand more of my symptoms and system.
Pyscharist has not beileve me yet hopefully they will soon.
Lag sucks. Sorry In advanced
@Wifidazze
Hello :) I can understand how hard that can be to live with; I'm here to chat if you ever need :)