Am I Behind?
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder before but when I changed doctor, he diagnosed me with bipolar disorder… I have always longed for a partner and oftentimes think that there’s something wrong with me or that I couldn’t find one because of my mental illness.. My ex is getting married too with the one he replaced me with.. Everyone is getting a partner and getting married except me.. I am 30 years old yet I feel behind in life.. I just want someone to understand me and I hope to feel better… I am trying to go out and socialize but when I get back home, I still feel the same which is very lonely. I don’t know what to do in my life anymore and I feel like giving up.. People say cliche stuff to me and I don’t seem to fully comprehend.
@yuumibear
Tthanks for sharing!
I am glad you shared that.
It seems like things aren't coming together like you want them too and you don't understand why..
Keep going your still learning. Take care🌟
Yes, that is true but I’m doing my best every day. Even I just show up 20%, I keep going.
@yuumibear
Such a courageous person you are!
Try to remember good days when you feel low.. it could help 🌟
Thank you. How are you able to say I am courageous?
@yuumibear
Your 30 years old, you have survived to get to this moment in time.. from what you posted it sounds like your life was often difficult.. you are a life warrior ✨️
Yes, that is true. I have been in tough times yet I still keep going. I don’t give up. Is it something to be celebrated? I think it’s a curse because of life hardships.. I wish someone would choose me too. When I talk to people, I cannot help but think they are only saying cliche stuff to me.. but thank you for seeing me. I hope to be enough.
@yuumibear
I had major hardships myself until I got in my 40's.
I thought my life wouldn't improve either..
Now that i'm in my 50's i'm finally satisfied with my life and glad I never gave up.. The pain and suffering, being miserable, it was all worth it! I want this for you too yummibear!!✌️
I hope so too. Thank you. Right now I hope to find a partner but it’s still not coming. Sometimes i doubt myself and ask what is wrong with me. But I still keep going
@yuumibear
The way i found my life partner was i stopped looking and she found me... but it doesn't hurt to keep your eyes peeled looking for that perfect or decent person you need..💙
That’s what I am trying to learn. Not to look for Mr Right. But how do I start
@yuumibear just be open and available and get out there and hope something happens yummibear. Make sure you avoid hanging out alone in your house. Go to stores and restaurants etc. And just buy cheap things like a donut or coffee and just hang out..
One day you may find yourself in the right place at the right time and then...BOOM!!😮
Thank you.. I’m trying
@yuumibear I will also suggest something else... if you think you are having a mental block that's preventing success, I suggest you study this song extensively... the 🎵 song is by Bush called "Machine Head." This song is incredibly insightful... it changed my life after I discovered it wasn't just a great rock song..🤔
Thank you so much. I am trying to go out more often and not check my phone that much because when I don’t get notifications I feel bad
